I decided to start this sister page to my original blog saydubaitotherain as our lives have taken a dramatic change. We tragically lost my little brother Sam to sepsis and pneumonia on March 28th 2019. It came completely out of the blue and we are all still reeling from the shock.

I hope I will be able to return to our travel blog with the rest of our story when I can. I’d also like to use that page to add any stories and adventures with my older brother Dan.

This #bemoresam page may never be read by anyone but I feel the need to write down the chaos in my brain. Perhaps it will bring people or resources to my attention that may offer comfort. Perhaps my story can provide resonance for another person experiencing something similar. Either way if you’ve found your way here feel free to share thoughts, resources or ask questions.

My grief is something that I worry will be too much for those I know. Growing up in a rather unconventional way, the sister of 2 brothers with PMLD (Profound and Multiple Learning Disabilities) I’ve always been cautious to honestly answer the question “how are you?” even with those closest to me I have never wanted to be thought of as always complaining or feeling miserable so even through my hardest times I try to be as positive as I can.